A lot of folks think it’s easy to write a blog… I mean, they’re free to write, free to read, you can even post articles from your phone if you want to.. There’s no proofreaders, no editors or publishers… pretty much no expectations whatsoever. The bar is set about ankle high, and there are roughly 47 bajillion blogs out there to be read.
If you didn’t know, it’s actually really hard to write a blog! It takes a lot of time, and you don’t get paid a dime for any of it… not to mention that you are putting yourself, your ideas and your heart, out on that limb to be ripped apart by anyone who wants to tear someone down.. and there are a LOT of those sort of people out there! I don’t censor the comments on my blogs, but I do have to screen them, because some of the language people use! Goodness! Since I try to respond personally to every comment or email, I have read some pretty hateful things that you would not believe! Some people aren’t happy unless they’re unhappy, and the very nature of the internet makes it easy to anyone to say anything they want in relative anonymity… which apparently makes them feel like it’s okay.
I have asked several past readers what sort of (specific) things they would like me to write about and the most common answer is “I don’t know, just write something inspiring!”… yeah, no pressure there! There are some actually very serious topics that people have asked about, and they are honestly things that I have struggled with myself, adding to the pressure!
I know I am a true artist because I suffer from chronic insecurity and self esteem issues… it’s absolutely terrifying to me to think that there are actually people looking to me for something meaningful… people have asked me to write about things like dealing with grief and loss of family members, even children… addiction, relationships… in all honestly I am no expert on any of those things! I am the first to admit my life is just as screwed up as anyone else! I have pledged to post to the blog a minimum of twice a week… Holy crap! two inspiring articles a week?!? Are you kidding me?!? Who am I to think I can pull that off?? I know for a fact there are folks around who are better qualified to answer lifes questions than I am! I’ve only been around for 31 years, and most of those have been spent messing up instead of figuring anything out!
Someone told me the having courage means pressing forward even though you are scared senseless… and I am definitely scared senseless! They say you shouldn’t ask anything of your readers when you first start a blog, because people are consumers and they don’t want to immediately give, they want to see what they can get out of something first… but I’m going to start this whole thing off with a BIG request! I am going to keep on posting, and doing the best I can to sort this life stuff out for myself AND for all of you guys… sometimes I may hit something that helps someone, sometimes I may just confuse us all… but I’m going to ask for grace from you, my readers, my friends. I need your grace to overlook my stupidity, I need your support to overcome my terror and apprehension, and I need you to agree to stay with me on this crazy trip!
Sometimes I think I’m going crazy, like I’m the only one who thinks our lives can be beautiful, but I KNOW there are others who feel just as crazy… just as lost… this blog is for US. This blog is for all of US who are trying to figure things out, who just need to know that we aren’t alone in our questions!
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE keep reading! Keep commenting! Sign up for the email subscriptions so I can see how many of us there are! If you think there is someone who would belong here, PLEASE tell them to join in the conversation! I have NO IDEA where this is going to lead, let’s all find out together!
Everyone is welcome here… everyone is beautiful here.
…now my coffee is cold.